Day 8 - short term goals for this month and why

I am not a dreamer.  Not a goal maker, not a look to the future kinda gal.  But lately I have been dreaming a little.  It's hard for me to do and a little frightening.  I catch myself doing it and then stop myself immediately. 

So on tap this month I have a goal to conquer this wedding brownie. (I'm actually going to tackle that sucker today!)  My darling cousin is getting married this month and she is not a fan of cake.  She asked if I could make a wedding brownie instead.  I was shocked and so flattered that she asked me.  My sister Kacie and I are gonna work on the final project together but I have been testing like mad.  I have a vision in my head and so far my results aren't matching.  So after a little internet research I'm gonna try again today.

Probably sometime last month I started in on a little parenting crisis.  I was calling it that and my sister Em said I should call it a parenting evaluation.  I am questioning who I am as a woman and a mother.  I'm freaking out and stressing out about the parent/child relationship, how I parent, what kind of family I want us to be, etc. etc.  If you know me at all you know I am a snow-baller....one thing is wrong then everything is wrong.  So my goal for this month is to finish this little quest I am on.  Finish the reading materials I picked up.  Get all my thoughts straight and move forward. 

I also have a "goal" (man I hate that word) to start regular exercise.  I need to do it for me.  I'm hoping I can find some sort of exercise that I enjoy rather than loathe or dread.

And on a lighter more fun side I want to attempt making bread.  My Grandma bakes amazing fresh bread.  She will have loaves of bread or hot steaming rolls when we go for our visits sometimes.  It is so yummy and so comforting.  I have been afraid of any recipe containing yeast because it's such a fickle ingredient.  Sometimes it will rise and sometimes - no way Jose!  But GG has given me some tips to go along with the recipe so I'm ready to try.  The weather is supposed to get cooler so being able to use my oven will be fun.

P.S.  We had a team meeting this week with the Director of our agency.  I got some good news!  After 7 months of not knowing...... I get to keep my job!  I did a happy dance all the way home from the office.  Huge sigh of relief.  And I put that at the top of my many blessings list for the day!!!

(And just because every post needs a pic -  This was taken when we had a power

                         outage back in February. The kids thought it was so fun to

hang out in the dark with candles.)